Monday, April 12, 2010

Totalled.

Well it's official. I'm an idiot. It started off as a clear sunny day which makes me much more of an idiot. I was just driving along up to Logan like I always do, and there it is. Somehow I managed to rear end a car.
My car was fine. Except that the airbags deployed. Which is kind of an issue. Cosmetically? It's fine.
What sucks is that my car is now totalled. The repairs for the airbag deployment? 2800-ish. My car is worth about 1500.
After crying and being shock for about an hour and a half after the accident, my parents came to rescue me. I keep trying to tell myself that this is going to be ok. But I don't really believe that anymore. I'm in Logan, without a vehicle. Which is fine except that I now have to rely on everyone else for anything.
I'm trapped. I've can't get a loan because I don't have a job. So I can't buy a car. Even in august/september when I might have worked long enough to qualify for a car loan, I have to leave my job to come to Logan. Where a job isn't guaranteed.
I don't have the money to just get a junker somewhere. I need about two grand which I don't have right now, nor will I have any time soon. Maybe my parents can help me out. But this wasn't how it was supposed to work. My car was going to last at least for the summer and into the fall when I knew I had a job in Logan so that maybe I could buy a car.
My savings is dead....thanks to college. So what do I do?
Should I come up here next year? I mean a car might be doable if I can somehow keep my job at Pinnacle all year.
I need a car or access to one. I just don't know what to do. I break down I could handle. My car is totalled. And I'm feeling pretty totalled too.
Just get me out of here or give me a solution. When it rains, it pours and I'm sick of it. I can't handle this.