Monday, May 31, 2010

My apologies

Geez that last post was a little heavy. I'm feeling much better today so yeah. Happy Memorial Day.
I worked out in the yard and just kept thinking that maybe if I'm really lucky I'll get a tan. That would be cool. I'll even take a sunburn at this point.
Today is supposed to be a totally epic movie making day. So far we haven't even started. This is quite unfortunate. I'm thinking we'll get to it...eventually. I wish American Eagle would ship the order I put in on Friday. I really want my new cute clothes.
Oh and I did a photo shoot this weekend, thanks to Kait. Here's my favorite so far. Eventually all of the pictures will be up on her blog Check it out!!!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

And then it hit me...

I've been doing pretty well with this whole Tyson leaves in 2 weeks thing...until last night. I think last night was the first time it really hit me that he's leaving.
I keep trying to figure out why it's taken me this long to realize that he's leaving. Maybe this is just my way of dealing with it. I just keep pretending that I can just drive up the road and be at his house. I'm used to not seeing him in Logan, but he's always here in PG.
I know him going is the right thing to do, but I can't help but feel selfish about it. Most of me doesn't want me to go, but the wiser part understands.
I just keep trying not to think about it and at the same time I think to myself is this the last time we'll talk about this? Is this the last movie we'll go out to?
I keep trying to hold myself together and so far I've been fairly successful. Until last night when it hit me. He's really going to be leaving.
Of course there are going to be the things I won't miss, like how he can be a really big grump sometimes...but other things I know I'll miss. Like our talks, how it feels when he subconciously takes my hand when he's driving, how whenever I'm tired and say carry me he takes it way too seriously, or how he calls me Tumblina.
I'll miss more of him being my best friend than anything else. How we can tell each other everything, how he knows me better than I know myself, how well he can read me, and how he knows exactly what I'm trying to say even when I can't convey it. We have tons of inside jokes that no one else will understand.
Yeah I think I might have been better off pretending that this wasn't really happening....

Sunday, May 23, 2010

You know you're getting old when....

I know I'm getting old when the first thing I look at when I see a cute boy is his left hand.

I need two hands to count all the people I know that are getting married.

I work 8 hours a day and have to worry about saving for college and paying off a car.

I realize he's leaving for 2 years.

Some days I'm marriage hungry.

Other days I have other things in mind.

I've been dating the same guy for a year and a half.

People at work think I'm 25.

I only have 2 years of college left then I start my career.

I read 17 magazine with Kait to learn how to flirt, but then we end up laughing more about "touch me gently".

How did this happen? When did I grow up?

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Summer...At Last....

So yeah I love Winter...but I also really hate being cold. So I'm very much excited for this wondrous warm weather.
So far I've only been home 2 weeks and I feel like I've packed in quite a bit of stuff:
1. Buying a new[er] car!
2. REAL Game
3. Working 40 hours.
4. Lots of movies.
5. Iron Man 2 (it was so awesome it got its own number on the list)
6. Helping Kait out with some photo shoots.
7. A Little Ceasar's run...with Jordan, Tys and Uli...."HEY! Is that PIZZA?"
8. Baseball games.
9. A mechanical crack addicted baby.
10. Sitting out in Kait's front yard.
11. A baby shower.
12. Being asked to join the Pinnacle Pirates Softball Crew.
13. Mother's Day Extravaganza.
14. Subway with the girls from work.
15. "Oh....that's how you work the sun roof....MY SUNROOF OPENS!!!"
16. And you know there's been so much more....
I'm loving if I could just get a tan!