Happy Halloween!

For Halloween this year I am Angela Martin from The Office (on left). It's pretty much awesome. My hair is pulled back and I'm all dressed up. I even have an engagement ring since I'm engaged to Andrew Bernard.
Anyways PG plays Brighton today in the State football tournament. Mangle a Bengal...Brighton your day! We're going to win.
Tonight I'm going to a friend's house to watch a scary movie. It should be interesting as it will be the first time two of my friends really hang out after tons of drama. If one of them even shows up....Let me tell you how dumb drama is. Oh and tomorrow Tyson and I are going back up to nightmare on 13th which I highly recommend. I also recommend Hee Haws Night Terrors. The scary thing up there is AWESOME! It totally scared both me and Tyson. Well have a Happy Halloween!

My new phone..for reals!

So pretty much I couldn't get my blackberry. Here's why. I don't have internet access on my plan. And my parents didn't want to pay for it. And Blackberry REQUIRES that you have internet. So I didn't get my Blackberry.
Instead I got the Samsung Rant. Which I actually like better believe it or not. It's black with a metallic blue outline. It plays music, has a slidey keyboard, and a BIG screen. I love it lots.
I still need a screen protector for it, I still have the little screen thing on it that came with it. It has writing on it and it is REALLY annoying.
Oh and my school is making weird noises as I'm in the writing lab. Oh and also I already used my 160 sheets of paper that I'm allotted. I'm in here too much.

Prop 8

Alright let me tell you a little bit about what I think on this. First of all people saying that temples will close if Prop 8 doesn't pass is completely false.
In this country we have a little thing called RELIGIOUS FREEDOM. Temples and LDS owned land in California may lose some tax benefits at the very most, but no religion is required to recognize same-sex marriage as moral and will NEVER be required to marry them as long as our U.S. Constitution remains intact.
Next lie, children will be required to learn about same-sex marriage and will be told that it is equal to traditional marriage.
No child is ever required to learn things regarding health or family life in California. If it is going to be taught parents have the right to pull their child from that class. It may be taught, but only going as far as to say the financial consequences and responsibilities of being married.
I for one would vote NO on Prop 8, even though The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints supports it. I feel that marriage should be available to everyone. If we take individual freedoms away just because of someone's sexual orientation, what will be taken away next?

New Phone

I have been waiting patiently for 2 years for a new phone. My poor pink Katana is on it's last legs. The front is excessively scratched, the back is cracked and broken in several places, and if you hold it upside down it opens on its own.
So naturally this month we were eligible for an upgrade. YAY!
I was looking at the phones. The LG Rumor was cool and so was this one Samsung one...but I finally decided on a BlackBerry. I figured since I'll have it for about 2 years I might as well go top of the line right?
So $200 dollars later...OUCH! I need to work 20 hours to work that one off. There is a mail in rebate...So once I get my phone I'll have to get that taken care of. And it won't hurt so bad then.
By the time I get this phone I think I'll be electronicly sound...and probably good for about 2 weeks when they come out with something cooler.

Me. I'm back.

Last week was bad. If I've ever come close to absolute darkness and depression that was definitely it. I felt as though my tiny little world had just imploded.
Kaitlyn used to call me Rapunzel. It was as if I let the prince up in the tower and he turned out to be a suicide bomber...my tower blew up. I found a new one and I cut my hair. But did that really make it better? To just give up on life? Meaning? Love?
It didn't make it better. So I bought some good CDs and cried a bit. Sometimes you need that. A few onion rings later(they're my comfort food...weird i know), I'm better. I'm back in the game, my injury didn't last long.
I'm back to me. Back to happiness. Back to where I'm supposed to be. I firmly believe everything happens for a reason, and even when you feel you can't get out of your slump. You can. I'm a lot stronger than I thought I was. Sure it's going to ache for a while. That's just what happens. Like Jack's Mannequin says, "Swim." Don't simply tread water. Swim.
Swimming implies you are moving. You're moving towards something. For me I'm making some goals, I need to get back on track.

1. Be happy for you, not anyone else.
2. Get YW award...
3. Keep up your musical projects.

That's all I've got so far. But I'll keep swimming.

Long Time No See

Pretty much the last post was totally emo and I haven't written for 3 months. What does that look like? It looks like I'm committing suicide or something. Sorry about that. Here are some theme songs for me right now...

Jack's Mannequin - Crashin
I wanna hear some music
Now that they're driving
us all underground
Not the radio music, or their
satellite singing this
In this town, in this town

I wanna hear some music
And with the rock stars
all flicker and fade
Power radio music, I'm a
ghost overground
On, on parade

And even if your voice comes back again
Maybe they'll be no one listening
And even if I find the
strength to stand
Doesn't mean I won't go missing
And the world will come
Crashing

I wanna hear some music
I have been waiting down
here for so long
Trying to write this big music,
With your breath on my face
But now, now you're gone

And even if your voice comes back again
Maybe they'll be no one listening
And even if I find the
strength to stand
Doesn't mean I won't go missing
And the world will come,
Crashing
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And the whole world comes
Down, down-wards
And all the water on this broken town
The freeway's just like
veins without a heart

And the world just comes
Crashing

And the whole world comes
Crashing

And even if your voice comes back again
Maybe they'll be no one listening
And even if I find the
strength to stand
Doesn't mean I won't go on

And even if your voice comes back again
Maybe they'll be no one listening
And even if you find the
strength to stand
It doesn't mean you won't go missing

And the world will come
Crashing

And the words will come
Crashing

And the music comes
Crashing

Down on me
Down on me

And the words will come
Crashing

And the words will come
Crashing

Down on me
So down on me...

Motion City Soundtrack - Even If It Kills Me
I’ve got a lotta things to do tonight
I’m so sick of making lists
Of things I’ll never finish
I’ve lived here for the last 12 years
Since early 1995 all my shit has been in boxes
But if I had a little more time to kill
I’d settle every little stupid thing
Yeah you’d think that I would

But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I wonder if I’ll ever lose my mind
I tried hard for awhile
But then I kind of gave up
Winter is killer when the sun goes down
I’m really not as stubborn as I seem
Said the knuckle to the concrete

But I’m too tired to go to sleep tonight
And I’m too weak to follow dreams tonight
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try to get better and
Overcome each moment
In my own way

I’m not saying that I’m giving up
I’m just trying not to think
As much as I used to
Cause never is a lonely little messed up word
Maybe I’ll get it right some day
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I want to try
I feel helpless for the most part
But I’m learning to open my eyes
And the sad truth of the matter is
I’ll never get over it
But I’m gonna try
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way

I sure want to get back on track
And I’ll do whatever it takes
Even if it kills me