On Progress

I feel like I've been doing a lot of complaining lately about how overwhelmed I am or how freaked I'm getting. I wrote up a bunch of posts that I just couldn't bring myself to actually publish.
Not because they weren't real, or raw enough. But because in the sea of taffeta and wedding colors and photography and outfits and tables...I lost sight of why we go through all of this.
We had engagements on Sunday. I got my hair and my makeup done and I was just so stressed over them. I wanted them to be perfect and to look as good as all the pictures you see and I wanted to look good and all that jazz.
When we got in front of the camera it was so calm and relaxed. Just having someone tell us exactly what to do every step of the way was so refreshing. When you get engaged nobody hands you a manual that will teach you how to plan a wedding and everything you need. I'm sure "Planning a Wedding for Dummies" exists, but I'm still not sure it would really help.
No one can really tell you exactly what you want at your wedding, even though everyone sure tries. It gets to the point where you just have to make the decisions you want to make and consult with people later. That way you don't lose your mind entirely.
I definitely understand why people (outside of Utah) tend to use an entire year to plan their wedding. It makes sense to do it that way, but I think it would be so hard to wait that long to see everything materialize. The closer it gets I start getting giddy and the excitement is sinking in.
We're just figuring out the last of the details at this point. I feel like we have this light at the end of the tunnel waiting for us. Just two more months.